Thanks, girls! I need you all so much, and I am not afraid to admit it.Jules

I am sorry you are having a rough day....I hope this pretty bouquet of virtual flowers will cheer you up a bit! I am in your corner babe, cheering you on! I am so proud that despite your struggles you have stuck to your eating habits as well as the exercise and water! That is truly taking good care of yourself! See the strides you have made already?! This too shall pass.....



I found Willem doing excercises in the morning, and I just thought that was so cute! He said that he started doing them a couple of weeks ago. I've noticed that his tummy has gotten smaller too since I've changed my eating habits. I just think it's cool when you can see that you've influenced other family members in a positive way. It is clear to me that he is feeling better about himself. :) Not that he had a huge amount to lose anyways... but no man wants to walk around with a beer belly.



I weighed myself again this morning, it has been a week since the last time. I've lost another two pounds, bringing my total up to thirteen now. I'm satisfied with that number for the first three weeks. But more importantly, I FEEL much better in my clothes. Some of them are getting too big, because I've lost inches, as well as pounds. I think I'll have myself measured in another week. I just wish it could all come off at once. But as Kimi had written in an earlier post; it has taken us years to put the weight on, and it isn't going to just come off over night.
As far as I can remember, I have never ever gone to the grocery store just for fruits and veggies alone. I had done the majority of my grocery shopping in the middle of the week last week. And then on Friday, I needed to get some more fresh produce. And would you believe, that was ALL that I picked up?! Even with all of my little ones with me. Now, to many of you that may not be a very big deal. But for a woman that has had a junk food addiction, it is a very big deal. It just stood out to me that I didn't pick up any junk at all, not even for the rest of my family. 

After you get your hair cut,is it okay to say that you feel cute? I wanted to do something a little different that represented the new, emerging me. I'm feeling so good about myself. I hope that that doesn't sound too proud. But you know, for the first time in quite a while, I am taking pride in my appearance. And blast it all if I don't continue to take pride in my appearance. I mean, just because I'm a stay at home mom, doesn't mean that I have to live in the frump mom mode. Down with frump, and up with funk!

I had a cool thing happen to me this morning. I was the first person to get to Curves, and that has never happenned. I was there a couple of minutes before 6:00. In fact, I was the only one working out the whole time that I was there. In the past,(it's time for some real honesty here), I've enjoyed working out with other women, because I'm very strong and there are a couple of machines that are so tough that most women skip right over them. I never have, because I can do them, because I'm quite a bit stronger than the average woman. And, well, quite frankly, I enjoy that. I'm very competetive, and used to be very athletic. But, as I was working out this morning,(and as there was no one there to see me), I ended up having one of the hardest workouts that I can remember. And it made me think, I really am doing this for MYSELF. I don't have to have other people around me do to my best. And that I'm going to get out of it what I put into it. Just a cool revelation...

I'm learning to love myself again, and it's more than just the weight thing for me. If you were to ask me if I feel better about myself for my recent weight loss, the answer would of course, be yes. I know it's only eleven pounds so far, and I still have a huge amount to lose. But as I've started this journey, now only being on day eighteen, I've come to realize that I am really glad to be me. I've come to realize that I'm stronger than I thought. And every day that passes, in which I avoid the strongest of junk food temptations, it just solidifies to me, the fact that this time I am going to make it. I'm going to make it to my goal, and I'm going to live life to the fullest. Because I love myself, and I love my family.








Well, here I am on day twelve. I'm doing well, but there were a couple of days that were rather tough for me this week, being on my cycle and all. But, I have stuck to the plan. I've worked out three times this week, and plan to go tonight if Willem gets home in time. It's cool to already see my clothes fitting me better. I was in a slump where I just kept wearing the same couple of outfits over and over... the one's that I felt less fat in. Now I'm actually wearing some of my other things again, and it feels wonderful.