The good: I ran several miles on Saturday, I've been drinking lots of water, and I've been making sure that I'm eating small meals throughout the day rather than eating nothing and then overdoing dinner.
The bad: Yesterday all I ate was truffles, champagne, and chocolate raspberry cake. Oh, and I got another year older. I've also been scared to get on the scales for the past couple of weeks. I don't want to know until I have it under control.
The ugly: I'm pretty stressed out, I don't know why, and I'm not too happy about it. This morning I drove way up north to drop my car at the end of the train line (since I have a racquetball class there this evening but can't deal with the rush hour traffic and make it on time), took the train back to the stop by my house (and next to the post office), stopped by the post office where I completely lost it, and then hopped back on the train to head downtown to work, still crying when I got to my office (early?!). Drama much? I'm not sure what that's all about. However, I feel like I need to get back on track with the whole diet and exercise thing because that is, at least, something I can control.
I hope each of you has a blessed week. Paige, you especially have been in my thoughts after your post last week (I read it, I'm sorry I didn't have time to comment) and I wanted to let you know that I really admire your rededication and your ability to share what you are going through. I'm pulling for you.
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Happy Birthday, Lisa! I need to get a list of all the bdays!! I hate missing out on that kind of celebration opportunity!
Let this be your year, Lisa, to see dreams come true and to amaze yourself anew with the strength and beauty that is the core of who you are!
Cheers! Jules
I can easily get stressed out without knowing exactly why too. I just layer one stress on top of another until I'm a ball of nerves and don't know why. At Christmas time I had a breakdown in Costco after some guy yelled at me. I mean I sat down in the middle of the floor bawling. How embarrassing!
That was my indication that I had let things spiral too far out of control and since then I've been peeling back layers of stress dealing with one at a time.
Oh, and my short comment is: Try a B-complex. B vitamins help me with stress tremendously.
Jennifer,
You have no idea how much better that makes me feel to hear about your Costco incident. My thing at the post office? A letter they were supposed to be holding for me got sent back out for a redelivery attempt today. I was sobbing in the lobby of the post office and then all the way on the train I still couldn't pull it together.
What was the best thing you did to manage your stress level? I'd like to know...
Lisa
P.S. Thanks for the birthday wishes, Jules. As far as I'm concerned, however, I can just STOP having any more birthdays for the next decade or so. :)
Well, I saw my doctor about the fact that no matter how much sleep I get I still feel tired. I did a sleep study, but am still trying to get the sleep puzzle worked out. I'm seeing a sleep specialist on March 1st.
The other thing is to try to analyze what is causing me the most stress at any given moment. Is it the bills? Is it the mess in the kitchen? When I figure that out I ask myself, what is one step I can take right now to address that situation? Just acknowledging the situation relieves a lot of stress, but when I actually go do something about it I feel great. It was causing me much more anxiety to constantly run away from unpleasant realities than to actually face them.
Also, making 30 minutes daily on the treadmill non-negotiable has helped. The exercise seems to be easing my sleep trouble, and it is increasing my brain's serotonin production (so say experts) and it's making my stomach and thighs smaller (almost imperceptibly so far, but I've only just begun.)
I think that we get so good at being professional moms, lawyers, teachers, etc., we tend to forget that we are women too, who have a gift of emotional sensitivity.
I find myself breaking down when I am pushing myself too hard, or ignoring a true need I have for some reason.
I don't usually break down either, but last weekend at the ski slopes I had to excuse myself and go around a snow pile to squat down and cover my face. It wasn't long before I was sobbing.
I let myself sob for a while and then asked God to help me. If I was being selfish and childish, then I wanted to be forgiven, but if there was something else, I needed to address it as a self-love/preservation thing.
And then again, there's the lovely free pass you can give yourself if you are hormonal, because God KNOWS how we can all get. :-)
So, if I were there, I'd give you one of Julie Paine's sugar free dove squares and tell you a joke to make you smile.
Big love to you...keep on keeping on.
Happy Birthday Lisa!
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