Friday, November 30, 2007

There IS coming a day...

When I will look thin in ALL of the photos that are taken of me, not just half. I will look thin, because I will BE thin. I am tired of this cycle of doing great for a while and then pigging out and gaining 10+ pounds! I know what I need to do, but then I tire of it. I am discovering that I am an extreme person in many areas of my life. For the most part, this can be a good thing. Why do we go through these cycles?! I mean, I gained weight right before I had my family Christmas picture taken,(and it shows). And since then, about a week, I've lost eight pounds people! 16 pounds isn't far to go. I just need some cheerleading I think. That, and a good massage. : )

7 comments:

Chickadeeva said...

Kris,

I think you may need to redefine thin. You look VERY thin compared to many previous photos.

Its that competitive nature. May you learn also to love yourself even when you're a few extra lbs. Do not grow weary in well doing my friend, and do not feel bad about seeing things about yourself you don't like.

You can win. You are won! (if you know what I mean!!)

Mom2the6Rs said...

OH, honey, be gentle with yourself!!! Love you! Do you want to reshoot your photo? Jules

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Mom said...

I agree with the rest, you do look very thin. Don't fall into the trap of seeing yourself through a warped perspective.

Kristina said...

Thanks girls... I think that I was over tired when I posted this yesterday. : )
And thanks for the offer Jules, but it's too late, I've already sent out about half of my cards.
It's just tough because I've worked so hard for so long, and then I screw up, and just in time for everyone to see,(via my Christmas cards). I mean, I look pretty good in them, but not great. I suppose it's just my pride. But I'm finding that I have been been comparing myself to women that are smaller than me, women that will always be smaller than me just because the type of build that they have.
I'm sorry, I'm kind of rambling here. I AM thankful for the progress that I've been able to make. I do feel beautiful. I just want to get to the finish line and stop screwing myself up along the way.

Chickadeeva said...

There is nothing wrong with targeting things that get in the way of your happiness. You aren't complaining that you aren't thin ENOUGH, but rather that you compromised yourself, which I can understand is frustrating.

Thank GOD you aren't perfect yet or I couldn't be your friend! :-)

Take the card and put it on your fridger. The next time you feel like compromising yourself, look at the photo, remember how you felt when you posted this....You can totally over come that.

Sis Boom Bah! Here is your cheerleadDAH!

Jennifer said...

I completely get how you're feeling. I think we're a lot alike in that way. I'll bet, though, that everyone who gets that Christmas card will be like, "WOWZERS! Kristina looks fabulous!" I know they will.

Right now I'm telling myself that I'm going to just "do it right" this week, and it's going pretty good. I've had some slips, but I'm back to making progress instead of hovering at the same weight for months. HOPEFULLY, I can embrace that mindset, and every time I slip I can say, "Okay, let's just go back to doing it right." When I'm "doing it right" more days than not I'll be in good shape. ("Doing it right" means different things for different people, but I think we all know HOW to "do it right." It's good to be reminded that we can choose to do that at any time.)