A Testament to the Lifestyle

It has been one of those days. Work isn't the problem (for once), but my personal life has been doing a pretty good job of imploding this afternoon leaving me not only disappointed, hurt and wanting to cry, but stuck at work where venting any of this is out of the question. It's one of those days where you wish you were anywhere other than where you actually are - it doesn't matter where - and that feeling at the pit of your stomach feels like you could fall into it an go all the way to China. I hate feeling this small and sad.

So anyway, I have spent the last few hours feeling pretty wretched and thinking of how I could make myself feel better. Diamonds are too expensive. I couldn't think of any comfort movies that would work (and not drag me down further). There was less expensive jewelry that might have worked, but I would have to order it an I need at least some element of instant gratification today. I simply cannot buy any more linens (my general comfort purchase). The make-me-feel-better item that I finally settled on is new running shoes that I will go out and purchase after work with this month's mad money. Expensive, custom-fit, me-specific running shoes to replace my rapidly wearing ones.

What a difference a year makes. This time last year, I would have probably turned to chocolate or some other comfort food and it would have been the first thing that crossed my mind. Truth be told, chocolate indulgence didn't occur to me this time until after I settled on shoes, and even now it doesn't sound very good to me. Now my choice* is something that is generally better in line with a healthy lifestyle, and that makes me a little happier too. And actually pretty proud of everything I've learned and committed to through this blog. I'm groping for silver linings wherever I can find them today.

* Correction: my second choice is something in line with a healthy lifestyle. My first choice is something that goes sparkle, but we can't have everything.

So I hope everyone has a good, drama-free weekend. I'm going to take this weekend to throw myself a pity party and run until I feel better - or at least until I'm bored with my problems - and I will see y'all Monday.

Love,

Lisa