Am I beginning to lose faith? Has my hope disappeared? I feel like I am definitely in the shadow of doubt and worry, lately. Will I really lose this weight by writing down all I eat, drinking water and making it to the Y? It just seems like a fairytale. Day 58, is where I am at. I have been doing this just long enough to feel the doubt and to hear the voices that say, "You won't succeed. How can this be the plan? It must be harder, more complex, something out of your reach. If it was this simple, you would have done it a long time ago, everyone would be doing this if it was this simple." I hate that voice. I hate the doubts. I can be such a baby. And when will this "damn" cold be gone, anyways? I feel like I am being picked on by every virus on the planet! Pity party...Saturday morning, my house, bring your own complaints.
8 comments:
Oh Jules,
Our number one cheerleader down in the dumps. How can this be? Don't let the enemy do that to you! Look at how far you have come and the shrinking alien! If you never lost another pound, would this have been worth it? You bet! You are looking good! One, purposeful step at a time. Many of my friends can eat whatever they want and still be thin. My neighbor friend is one of them. She eats tons of literally junk and still has the body of a table dancer! I have come to accept that is not God's chosen journey for me. This is. So I can choose to enjoy eating, or I can work hard and choose to enjoy being thinner. But not both. I choose life! You have chosen life too! And you have touched the lives of women you don't even know! Big time! Look at how God has used you! My mom and I both gain all our energy from the blog. The WW meetings do nothing for me but give me info.
Look up the mountain and keep climbing Jules! You can do it!
SueAnne
Thanks, girls. I guess, my love tank has been a bit low because of being sick. I haven't been able to exercise since Tuesday and that is so frustrating! I just hear the doubts and, like last night, I am craving certain foods that I haven't even wanted for awhile. I think it is because my emotional bank account is running dry. It can be easy to cheer others on while looking on your own path with doubt. I just need a little spark...a little lift. You all can be that lift for me today!
Jules
SueAnne, I thought it was terrific that you remembered about the "alien". With so many women on this blog, it is flattering to know that you can remember my special "terms" for stuff. You are a good listener and your comment really shows me you are genuine and you care.
Jules
There is no way that enyone can be "up" all the time. It's just not in our nature. As much as we would like to believe that we can be positive every day of our lives - it is not realistic. That's what is so great about having the support of family and friends. Your honesty gives others a chance to give you that support and inspiration. Thank you for that.
Love you,
Your Other Mom
Love you, Mom. Thanks...You know, Your Other Mom is YOM for short. I could call you YOM...silly, eh?
Jules,
You have accomplished amazing things so far. Setbacks can be frustrating, but it is obvious that once you choose a goal that you stick to it. And yes, all of this really works. The idea works, but it takes work and dedication. I know you have both in spades.
The plan IS simple, but most people don't do it probably for the same reasons you didn't earlier. It takes work, it takes sacrifice, it takes time, and unfortunately it also takes patience.
Look how far you've come Jules, not how far you have left to go. You have done an amazing job so far and you should be incredibly proud of yourself.
Lisa
P.S. I would hug you if I could. It sounds like you could use one.
Thanks Lisa, hug received!
Jules
Oh babe, I'm sorry you've been in the downie dumps, as they say on Rollie Pollie Ollie. Being sick makes everything more difficult. But look at how you have persevered over the weeks, and look at how awesome you look. And Jules, your 'Alien' is non exsistent as far as I can tell. I know you can make it to your goal. I know you WILL make it to your goal. Just keep pushing on, and be thinking about how hot you will be looking in your new Spring and Summer wardrobe. : )
Love you,
Kristina
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