Hey, Remember Me?

Hi, y'all! Man, it's been a long time since I checked in. Sorry about that. This is because I've been acting like someone who wants to weigh 250 pounds again. Ha!

Seriously, though, after months of not getting on the scale and basically eating and drinking whatever I want and not exercising, I've faced the music and my fear, and weighed myself. I've gained 15 pounds. Ugh.

I want to lose ten of those before July. I'm NOT going to accomplish that by eating Chinese food at the karaoke bar two times a week and ordering pizza one or two times a week. Unfortunately, I can't say that I'm feeling strong enough to change my ways.

I HATE having to watch what I eat. I HATE being fat more, but when I'm watching what I eat, that's in my face every day, several times a day. I can deny my fat and only face it when I realize I can't wear a certain pair of jeans anymore. So, it's easier to deny fat and keep getting fatter than it is to do something about it.

I know you all know that, though. I'm just expressing it, and trying to talk myself into getting excited about trying to lose weight again. It's time. I need to do it before I gain it all back. That would really suck, huh?

Checking In

Hello Girls! I stopped by the blog today and saw that you all are still doing great!! Way to go. I haven't been by for a long while, but am ready to start my weight loss journey once again. When I first started journaling my goal was to lose weight so I could have a baby. I DID THIS. During my pregnancy I got gestational diabetes. I ended up losing weight during my pregnancy. Now she is almost 4 months old and and I have gained it all back. So it is time to get serious.

Looking for all the support and prayers you can give me. The good news is that I am down 3 #s from the last tickler post. I am looking forward to talking with you all again.

Weight Loss Procedures

Hi Ladies,

I have a friend who is considering the lap band.

Does anyone here know anyone, or have personal experience with this type of procedure? What should she know? I'm trying to help her decide...

Google will also help, I know - but if you have direct experience or want to chime in on the subject, please do!

I journaled this last week...

 I haven't kept a journal for a very long time, but one of the trainers at the Y encouraged me to start keeping one again, and to journal my excersize as well, and that she'd be taking a look at it. 

And wouldn't ya know, I lost 3.5 this week! That puts me at a 6.5 pound loss since I've actively started trying to lose again a few weeks ago. She also encouraged me to alternate my weights. Doing upper body one day, and lower body the next. I've been told this a number of times from various people, but have been resistant, until now. Every day I do cardio, and upper and lower body weights, as I am anxious to get my totals up and to be #1! But I've been thinking it through, and I've decided that I will yield on this point, and let my totals drop, so as to see a change in my body. I want to become leaner, not bulkier. And this involves doing more cardio as well. Weights are easy for me, I am incredibly strong for a woman. Cardio is not easy for me, and this challenges me. But if this helps me to get to my goal, than do it I shall. 

Over it!

Thank goodness, it was only one day of mind numbing boredom I had to deal with. I'm over that yucky patch and going to get em again.

My hubby and I went to Ocean Shores this past weekend. It was a wondeful get away.
We rode horses on the beach (20 per hour!) and it was lovely. So, I got my ride in even though I was away from home.
(ask me sometime about how the second day's ride went)....

My scale blessed me with a 147 this morning. My highest was 164 so I'm really excited to see such a big difference, finally - those last pounds are moving.

Uninspired and simply BORED

Bored.

Ugh. I hate being bored. There is so much to do here. A trampoline, dogs, birds, sewing, cleaning, so, so many things to keep me occupied. Yet, I remain feeling void. BORED.

What do you gals do when you are bored or feel that empty feeling - how do you keep yourself from 'filling' that sense by food?

I poured myself a big pint of coca-cola. I know, its not good for me, but I'm letting myself have a glass every day or so (rather than a can every hour or so). The scale said 148 again today, so I figure I have the treat coming.

Help me! What do you do??

A confession that may shock, and even frighten some of you...

You know how I'm a numbers freak? Well... I went and checked my Fitlinxx stats, as I do every day online. I compare myself to all other members at my local YMCA. Anyhow, this afternoon, I thought that I'd try and see how I ranked worldwide. In the past, I've tried a few times to see how I've ranked to that degree, and it's never allowed me to see where I stand, until now. You guys, for weights for the year in  my 30-39 age group for women, I am ranked number FOUR in the WORLD!!! Let's just say, that made my day! : )

Hope you had WONDERFUL Mother's Days

For those who are mothers, I hope it was sweet,

If you are a daughter, I hope you enjoyed your momma.

If you had to borrow someone else's momma - then I hope you BOTH were blessed.

It may not come up again, but I still

wanted to share my thrill. I saw 148 on my scale this morning. I haven't seen the fourties since, well...in years. In about 4 years to be precise. I wanted to celebrate about the 148 because I'm afraid it'll disappear into the ether and I'll be back in the 50s. But this way - I told people and so the 148 can't hide anymore!

It is a big deal because I feel I've been fighting the same pounds over and over. I don't want this one to slip thru my fingers!

Wheee!

A little comic relief, along with my Fitlinxx stats for April

Last month at the Y, I kicked it up a notch and actually broke one of my records. : )

Anyhow, here's da #'s :

I earned 22,511 fit points,( my most ever for one month) placing me 1st in my age group, 2nd for all women, and 5th over all.

I burned 13,374 calories. ( That's the most that I've burned over the last six months) and it placed me 1st for my age group, 10th for all women, and 22nd over all.

I lifted 1,482,575 pounds. ( my most EVER) Placing me 1st in my age group, 1st for all women, and 2nd over all. Wheh!