Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Week 3
I love reading all your posts. Dreams, aspirations, accomplishments, struggles. You guys are great! These are my stats so far this week (WW)
Day 1: 24+points; 12 glasses of water;5 fruits and veggies; workout
Day2: 24+ points; 6 glasses of water; 1 fruit
Day 3: 24+ points; 6 glasses of water; 3 fruits and veggies
Day 4: 21 points; 8 glasses of water; 4 fruits and veggies
Day 5: 24+ points; 10 glasses of water; 4 fruits and veggies
Day 6: 24+ points; 14 glasses of water; 3 fruits and veggies; workout
Bank points used this week: 25
Mochas:4 !!! Mochas are evil.....Mochas are evil.....
Amazing Abs of Pudding! :)
I've been doing well the past few days - eating well and spaced out, drinking lots of water, and staying active... all of this just so I could report in to you!
I just thought someone would appreciate this. Last night in my yoga class, it was "ab night." Good gracious, I am sore today! After about 15 minutes of "hovering" (rest your elbows and forearms on the ground and hold the rest of your body like you're going to do a push up - no knees on the ground) I was absolutely shaking. And then driving home I felt like a big bowl of jello. But here's to a flat tummy, right?
As the bookkeeper in my office pointed out to me yesterday, we're in the final pre-summer crunch. I have a mere three months to feel comfortable in little clothes since down here in Texas it gets HOT! If I stick to the plan, I can't wait. :)
Happy Mardi Gras, Ya'll!
Update
Today is day two for me and I have done fairly well. I did a weight workout this morning that Kicked my butt! I just love this book that I am using. I finish feeling like I have been hit by a truck ( and yes this is a good thing!) I can honestly say I think I can see results after just two days. (no I am not selling the book!) I am anxious to post my butter and M&M results. So onward Ho!
Things to work on-
drinking more water-
Calorie counting-
Jenny
I got my bookmark!
Finally! I weighed in at Weight Watchers this morning. I was so happy to learn that I had lost 2.2 lbs more. That put me over my first goal of 5 pounds for a total weight loss of 7 pounds. I got my bookmark! My body has finally decided to cooperate with what my mouth has been doing - and it's been doing a lot less eating. Only 2 more pounds and I will be at my next goal of weighing under 150 lbs. They asked me about what I was doing and I told them that I belonged to a great Blog. Thanks everyone. :o)
Wish me luck!
Monday, February 27, 2006
Curves had my measurements!
After Kristina's amazing post of losing a yard stick, I called Curves, to get my inches they originally took for me in Dec of '04 and the update in March of '05. Ironically, they were the same, almost identical, as was my weight each time (218). So I bought a tape measure today and had Blake measure me tonight. I have lost 22.5 inches and 20 lbs, since those fateful weigh and measure days of yore. Yippee! Another reason to celebrate! (And the only M&Ms I'm getting for a good long while!)
Fessing up
I thought I better drop a line about my recent whereabouts. Well, this past weekend a lot of it was in my kitchen. DOH! I did not make some very good choices and I think since I cut out journaling my food, it has really made a difference. So back I go, sorry if it ain't to thrilling, but that really seems to help me right now. So here goes:
Breakfast: smoothy, I even added flax oil to it, I am so proud! Bowl of cereal
Lunch: Nice big salad, I even measured the dressing so I would be good.
Snack: cottage cheese and pineapple (a bit larger than a regular serving, but not too bad)
Dinner: Black bean enchilada, broccoli, cauliflower
Snack: popcorn and a fudge bar
Ok, that's today. I also worked out, The Firm 30 minutes
See you all tomorrow! Keep up the good to all of you doing so good and not crashing off the wagon like my weekend went! Well, I am back again and ready to rumble!
(PS I also did Pilates in the evening before bed WOO HOO!)
week 2!
Day 8 : 1030 cal and 8 glasses of water
Day 9: 1175 cal and 9 glasses of water and I worked out for 32 minutes
Day10: 1225 cal and 8 glasses of water
Day 11: cal tbd, but I've already had six and I'll easily down the other two tonight during dinner.
Tomorrow is my bday and I'm excited to celebrate it without sweets, its a hump I look forward to getting over. I'm going out to eat tonight with some old friends, we're getting thai, which is really safe, and I've saved like 600 calories for it, so I can really enjoy all the meat and veggies dishes without having to worry. I'll stay to my one cup of rice, but I'm definately going to eat more chicken and cashew! mmmmm
You gals are great.
Bananas
Two starch and two juice for breakfast
Two starch, two protein, one fat, and one fruit for lunch
Two starch, three protein, one fat, and veggies for dinner
One starch and one fat for dessert
Today? we didn't have bananas. Which is my lunchtime fruit. My bananas get me through the afternoon, but today is grocery day.
I'm SO PROUD of myself because even though I'm starving?? I haven't snacked or eaten cookies, marshmallows, or even fat free pringles. I'm waiting for my banana. I'm making a healthy choice.
It's choice by choice, ladies. One at a time.
I have added an M&M (inches lost) section.
I've Added a Countdown on the Sidebar
Invision with me if you will... a YARDSTICK!
Let me break it down, (just because it's so much fun for me!) I've lost 5 inches around my bust, 6.5 inches around my waist, 5.75 around my abdomen, 7.75 around my hips, 4 around my thighs, and 7 around my arms. Now, let me point out that when it comes to arms and thighs that they take just one limb, and then double the number. So in actuality, I've not lost 7 inches off of one arm, but 3 1/2 off of each. I'm feeling SOOOOO great!! I mean , when I got the picture of a yardstick in my mind, I couldn't help but smile. Talk about having an incentive to keep working out! I'm loving life today, and it's even a Monday. :)
Here's my weekends stats:
Day 48: 1,356 calories, 9 glasses of water, workout
Day 49: 1,350 calories, 7 glasses of water
Sunday, February 26, 2006
We are on FIRE!
My body is getting a makeover, so why not my kitchen?
I have been a slob. A body slob, piling on the weight, not giving a flying flip what I put in my mouth, etc. I have also been piling things in my kitchen like there is no tomorrow, girls! It hasn't been a pretty site and I have been in denial. I know that I hate being in my kitchen...But why? Because it is a pig sty, a pit, a poop hole, and probably a bacterial fiesta! So today, much to the JOY of my husband, I decided to get into gear and declutter, scrub, fumigate, my kitchen. Here are the photos to prove it. I think the kitchen literally lost 50 lbs. I took two trash bags to ValueVillage. I can't wait to get cracking on the rest of my house. It is a constant battle. A battle I like to call the Battle of the Crap.
Have a good week, ladies!
Hello ladies
Good gravy Julie said I was spunky and funny? That is soo... much to live up to! Ha! Hello ladies! Just a note to introduce myself and to get started with this blog. I am Jenny. I have known Julie for what seems like forever and I am glad that you all decided to let me into your "club". I don't know if I have belonged to a "club" since I was in highschool so already my self esteem has skyrocketed for just being let in the front door! (SMILE!)
The cold hard facts-
I am 34 years old.
I weigh the same now as I did when I was pregnant with my son.
I am NOT pregnant now! (can you see the problem people?)
The goals-
To lose 30 pounds of FAT( I will be measuring my body fat % and not my weight to see my progress)
To fit into the cute pair of size 8 Ralph Lauren shorts I just bought- by August!
To look great in a bikini even though I am too old to wear one!
The method-
I am currently walking about 20-25 miles a week.
Workouts at home (4 days a week) with the book Body Express Makeover.
I will be adding a few days of kickboxing with Denise Austin to vent my frustrations regarding how darn easy it is to get fat and how hard one must work to get skinny!
My weaknesses
Starbucks Lattes
I hate cold dark mornings and getting up to exercise
I need fast results or I get discouraged and bored!
So there you have it! I am sending a link to the great book I am using and I will include the photo of my shorts. I actually went in and bought a pair of shorts that are way to small for me because I could "see" myself in them. I told my husband that a visual goal is a good thing so I went out and got them! Come August I am posting a photo of me wearing them!!! Yipee, won't that be cool! Congrats to those of you that have already made the changes necessary to become the people you want to be. I am looking forward to posting my progress, and following in your footsteps.
Jenny
Spring Hurrah! (Update)
Ok, girls...Originally, we had planned to meet for the Spring Hurrah in Southcenter. Most of us (in the Pacific Northwest) live up North, so Kimi, gracious as she is, has agreed to meet at Northgate. That way, we can go a bit south to help her commute and she can come up North where we mostly reside. So...Put this date on your calendars: May 20th!
We will meet for lunch at Red Robin. This is located at the Southeast corner of the mall. They have lots of good choices for us there, and even more to avoid, if you catch my drift. There will be prizes for quirky categories that I come up with and there will definitely be shopping afterward. We will be meeting to celebrate our success thus far and, for some, for beginning a whole new lifestyle, as I suspect our numbers may grow come spring. See you all there!
Jules
Saturday, February 25, 2006
Accountability works
I was just on my way out the door to feed my mocha addiction and decided to read the blog before I go. You ladies are the reason I will stay home and chug some more water:) Thank you,
SueAnne
Who is Less of Paige?
First I want to say I'm so honored to be invited to be part of your community! I've read through some of the archives and recent posts and you are a wonderful community.
I'm 26 years old and already I have a pretty long "trying to lose weight" history. I've been using food for comfort and entertainment since I was in my preteens. These are not good habits to start. As I got older, the weight just piled on. As things got difficult in my life, it piled on more. Right when I graduated college I started working to lose weight, that was in 2001. I probably started then at about 185 and lost about 20 pounds. I felt great. Then I lost motivation. I left where I was- California- and moved home. I gained about 35 pounds, and when I started Weight Watchers for the first time I was 201.2. I did fantastic on WW the first time, but seeing as I have to add "the first time" clearly I've had my lows. I did WW the first time from Oct to about August, when I decided I wasn't going to pay people to tell me how much I had gained every week. I did it actively for about six months of that time and did great, lost about 30 pounds, and loved it. Then I lost my steam and started gaining. I took a "break" for about five months. I started WW for the second time and weighed about 203. I only did it for a few months and lost a whopping six pounds. I decided I needed something else.
Instead of finding something else, I took another break. From about March of '05 to Nov '05. I gained 20 pounds to weigh about 215. I was going through a few medical tests and saw a nutritionist. She recommended I try the "Diabetic Exchange" diet (more on that soon). I futzed with it and have really started it hard core in Jan of this year. I started weighing 221.5 and have lost ten pounds in about 8 weeks, overall. For me that's pretty good.
The Diabetic Exchange is a very structured way of eating. You get a certain amount of each "type" of food each day. I'm going to write it here so when you see me talk about it you can help hold me accountable! I get 7 starches (breads, carbs), and for the most part a starch is about 1 oz of bread or carb. 5 proteins (meat, cheese, peanut butter, and nuts) and again, 1 exchange is approximately 1 oz. I get 3 fat (oils, butters, etc) and 3 fruit. 1/2 cup of juice is one fruit. And 2 milk. The only things that count as milk are milk and plain yogurt.
I like this plan but still have a hard time some days. I love the high level of structure and the fact that I am forced to eat a very well balanced diet each day. What I struggle with is what to do when I mess up!! There are no "bank exchanges" in the Diabetic Exchange, so usually when I screw up in a day, weekend, or week, I give up that amount of time and start over the next day, weekend, or week. This is not a good way to make healthy eating choices and make this a lifestyle change.
I'm very committed to losing weight this time around. It's crucial to my health- if I don't, I'm at a very high risk for developing diabetes.
I'm well aware of how crucial support is to weight loss, which is why I couldn't be more excited to be part of this group! I hope you ladies feel free to hold me accountable, and I'm looking forward to encouraging, supporting, and getting to know everyone!!
So here's to eating it, moving it, and losing it!! I can't wait!
Boo Hoo 2 Thumbs and a Toe
Okay, here's something to compare it to...
I feel like I've found my face again!
Here's my last couple of days numbers:
Day 46: 1,125 calories, 8 glasses of water
Day 47: 1,436 calories, 12 glasses of water, workout ( You see SueAnne, you made me drink more water!)
Welcome Paige!
I found Paige via my second favorite blog, the Big Yellow House. She has her own weightloss blog "Less of Paige" that you should all check out. Anyway, I invited her to be apart of our blog and guess what ladies....She accepted! WhooHoo! So lets all give Paige a great big welcome! How our family is growing!
Friday, February 24, 2006
Flying high one day, off the wagon the next....
So there we were......5:30pm...still hungry, but now tired and grouchy......just want a big burger and fries.....ok I won't go that far. I will just go home and cook the dinner I had planned.....Nope, family wants to eat out and I don't want to cook. Subway...ya...Subway is safe. That is, if you are making good choices. You know, go for one of the low fat sandwiches. Nope, not me, got the chicken parmesan. That wouldn't have been so bad, if I had skipped the chips. Yes CHIPS! (Eeww!) I could have stuck with water...nope went for the soda. And, and, AND... stopped on the way home for a non-fat, decaf mocha.
I am still hanging tight to Queenlivalot's mountain climb analogy (post 2/19/06). One purposeful step at a time. I am going to take my heart burn and slip into bed, reciting Lamentations 3:22-23 softly to myself.......Tomarrow is another day.
Welcome Sweet Jenny!
Fat picture alert!
Holy shmoles, Batman! I found this photo of me and my adorable husband Thanksgiving 2001. I had just started a walking regiment with my friend, Mary Kate. I have no idea what I weighed, but check out the alien! I think my pants were a size 22. I have come so far! I am so excited. The past is the past. I am treking on, girls, one visit to the Y at a time, one glass of water at a time, one honest day written in my journal at a time.
Journal updates from Jules
Ola, mi amigas! Here are my newest updates. We had our "weigh in" meeting last night at Prism. It was great. People were really honest and open about where they are at. Some, like me, were flying high and full of hope, others were struggling, but determined to make the next 6 weeks really count for something. I am praying for my friends there. They are such "real" people.
Day 47: 1062 calories, 10 glasses of water, exercise
Day 48: 1266 calories, 13 glasses of water, exercise
Day 49: 1145 calories, 10 glasses of water
I am on Day 50 now...I have started Phase 2 of my program which means I can enjoy up to 2 pieces of Whole Wheat bread a day, 2 whole wheat or corn tortillas a day, and three times a week I can have a potato and a sugar free dessert. This gives me more options. I cannot, however, increase my calories unless I work out 5 days a week. I look forward to a new and exciting 6 weeks!
Welcome, Ms Northwest! (AKA SueAnne's Mom)
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Week 3 Day 1
24 points (+1 bank point);12 (that's right) glasses of water, 2 fruit, and 5 veggies; and a workout!
Woo hoo!
I was able to wear them!!
Here's some stats ladies:
Day 43: 1,357 calories, 8 glasses of water, workout
Day 44: 1,334 calories, 9 glasses of water, workout
Day 45: 1,509 calories, 11 glasses of water, workout
(I was hungry yesterday!)
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Week 2 Weigh In
I lost another 3.4 pounds! Bringing me to 5.8 in two weeks! Thank you God. I really needed that. I realize weekly weigh ins are a luxury and I won't always have these results, but it was just the momentum I needed to keep going. And the kids and I are back at the YMCA now. The cycle was a better workout than I expected and didn't exaust me for the day. Plus, I got to read while working out which stimulated me intellectually also- a must for moms:) I will continue that for a few weeks with stretching, then maybe get into some strength training.
So I am not officially out of my husbands pants, but I am wearing my jeans again (and breathing HAHA!). So my first goal is still ten pounds and to walk without a limp. Getting there.....:)
Welcome Lisa!
Hi There!
I was once a size 4, but that has been several years ago. I was too skinny then, but I wouldn't mind being back to a comfortable, off the rack 8. At the moment, however, I'm at a 12 (on a good day) - yuck.
But no one ever got anywhere whining, so here are my "ate it, moved it, lost it" resolutions:
1) Water! You guys are amazing with your dedication to drinking water so hopefully it will rub off on me. I am going to do my best to drink 8 glasses each day, and hopefully break my coffee addiction.
2) I resolve to get to the Y and really get my tush in gear at least three days each week. In addition to this, I will keep up my yoga class twice a week and my two tennis sessions each week. That's the "moved it" part of this, right?
3) I will add to your butter stick count. I will eat right (ensuring I get enough iron, calcium and protein since left to my own devices I don't) and watch the chocolate, medicinal though it may be.
4) I will cheer for each of you and let you inspire me. You guys have done so much to be proud of, and I will do my best to help you remember that when it seems you might need reminding. You have each accomplished something amazing.
Four resolutions - I can manage that. Thanks for letting me join your group - onward and thinward!
I'm feeling great this morning!
It is amazing...After reaching my first goal, I just feel so reinvented. I worked out a couple of mornings in a row now, I think I will end up with 5 days total workout this week! Just thought I would say that change can be scary, but it can also give you such hope. I am just filled with hope, right now. Here are some funny self portraits. The one in the jeans shirt, I took the day I started phase one of Prism. The others, I took yesterday, my end of phase one, start of phase two picture. I don't know if you can see a difference. I wish I hadn't covered my face in the first one, I think you can really see it in my face. I can also see it in my tummy...The "alien" is shrinking. I feel great!
Monday and Tuesday
Monday 24 points, 11 glasses of water; 2 fruit; 4 veggies
Tuesday 23 points, 11 glasses of water; 3 fruit; 4 veggies; workout
Does anyone want to tell me about the Prism program?
SueAnne
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
day 5
I did it!! My first goal accomplished!
I weighed in at the Y this morning and I am happy to report that I have had a breakthrough! I have said goodbye to the 200's FOREVER!! I am at 199, baby...Oh, yah! That is a total loss of 16 pounds! That's 64 sticks of butter! That is a large turkey! That is a smoked bone-in-ham. That is the weight of the Olympic Shot Put ball. It is the record weight of the Spotted Seatrout caught by Jim Phillips in 1977. It is also the weight of this child...Max. Amazing what a little Google can do for the hunt of a word picture! Ok, I am done rambling and I am awaiting your congratulations forth with.
I bought two new outfits this weekend!
Here's some stats for you all:
Day 41: 1,324 calories, 9 glasses of water, workout
Day 42: 1,237 calories, 8 glasses of water
Day 43: 1,357 calories, 9 glasses of water, workout
Monday, February 20, 2006
Just saying hi
Tina
I have been drinking my water...Have you?
Oh my water goblet overfloweth! I have had 12 glasses of water today! Just slamming them down! Feels good. I also read for 3 hours today to my kids. I will be weighing myself on Wednesday morning...I am excited an nervous. I will be entering into my second phase of the Prism Weight Loss Program and I am liking the results so far. My energy level is great, my clothes are getting baggy, and my resolve has not faltered. Here are my stats for the last few days:
Day 43: 1237 calories, 8 glasses of water, exercise
Day 44: 1068 calories, 8 glasses of water
Day 45: 1260 calories, 7 glasses of water
Day 46: 1205 calories, 12 glasses of water, exercise
Sabotage and Friendly Fire
There are certain comments that are worth a thousand of my favorite candy bars!
The day before yesterday, as I was walking up the stairs from the basement, (with my husband following closely behind me), he touched my back side and as we reached the top of the stairs he tenderly pulled me close and and said to me,'you're my hotty'. I wasn't looking for a compliment, I didn't ask him how my jeans looked on me. He just freely spoke these words to me. It made me want to work all that much harder to reach my goal. It gave me such a sense of pride. It was wonderful!
Week 2-Days 3-4
Sat 24 points (+5 bank points) ;10 glasses of water; 2 fruit; 3 veggies
Sun 24 points (+6 bank points); 8 glasses of water; 1 fruit;4 veggies
Sunday, February 19, 2006
Hi All !! I know I know...I don't post much..well except for a cute cartoon every now and again. Well, I am needing prayer..here is my dilemma... I am really excited for all of you who are doing well and feeling better, but I am feeling sorry for myself. I have been overweight for so long...and its due to a hormone imbalance. I am truly trying to eat better, drink more water, exercise but I see no results !(AND I MEAN NO, NADA, ZIP, ZILCH RESULTS) In fact the more I exercise the sicker and more awful I feel!! I did 3 months of Curves 3 to 5 days a week and I gained 2 lbs and 2 inches...they said they had never seen anyone gain inches!! I did weight watchers for 3 months...faithfully...lost 4lbs ..gained it all back after one period. The doctor says it's because excess hormone stores itself in fat, and when I exercise and lose some of that fat ...it throws all those extra hormones into my system!! REEKING havoc on my body and emotions.....they tell me if I can fight through and keep exercising that it should get better...but I haven't gotten there yet. The yuckies just seem to get worse every day and I don't know about all of you but I just don't have the time to be sick!!!
Another dilemma..I am going to Disneyland for 5 days next week...I don't want to feel sick the whole time I am down there...so I am going to quit exercising until after Disneyland, because of past experience I know that within 4 days of no exercise I will be over this flu like feeling...and I will just go back to feeling fat and tired, but I will at least be able to get out of bed and enjoy the time with my family. So please pray that I will make it through Disneyland with good eating choices, and that when I get back I can get back in gear...that I will have the strength to finally make it though the YUCKIES and begin to see ANY results !!!
The Climb
Kristina is an inspiration. This post started out as a comment on Kristina's post then I got carried away.
Getting to a mountain top isn't easy. Not that I have done it myself but I am married to a mountain climber. There is so much preparation before the actual climb even begins - work and discipline. Climbing means putting one foot in front of the other - slowly with an even pace. It means not giving up when it even becomes hard to breath. He says the experience is incredible. I will have to take his word for that because the only mountain top I will see will be from an airplane. However I think the feeling of accomplishing substantial weight loss has to be close to the feeling you get when you when you summit a mountain. That I hope to do. I just have to remember that you don't run up a mountain, you take those slow purposeful steps - one at a time.
The summit is stil a long ways away and the going is slow, but it is reachable. Kristina isn't the only inspiration -you all are. Every one of you are inspiring as you struggle and accomplish what you have set out to do. We are all changing our lives. WE ARE NOT ON A DIET. That's the hard part sometimes when we think we are on this temporary journey. If we can just change the way we feel about how we eat, why we eat and what we eat and realize that it is a life journey.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
The Girl Who Cried at Disneyland (and other tales)
Yes, I am back. I went to Disneyland with 2 of my kidos and my sweet, adorable husband. It was an amazing, forever memorable time. And the best part, I think Blake is hooked....he is talking about the NEXT trip we will take there. OMGoodness!
So, I am sure you are all wondering about the title. Yes, I did cry at Disneyland, well, to be truthful, I cried a couple of times. The tear of joy kind of cry, the choking up type of cry when Cinderella hugs you and tells you happy birthday or when your daughter meets Belle for the first time. But I also cried the other type of cry. The pitch a fit, feel sorry for myself, mad at the universe cry...and it was over a churro and a frozen banana (the chocolate dipped kind).
It was Thursday, our second day in the park, and I had done a great job staying on my program, with the exception of a beer at the Medieval Times dinner we went to the night before. I had packed apples for me to eat as a treat, and I had bought fruit plates and salads. Then Blake decided to go on a hunt for a treat. You know, he just felt like something sweet and yummy. So...we look here, we look there, we see this and we see that, we peruse this goodie stand...nah, nothing he wants there. We go around the corner to check out a different section and voila, a churro. A long, deep fried, piece of bread, covered in sugar and cinnamon. "That's it", says Blake, "that's what I want."
The kids chime in, " Oh, get one for me, too, Daddy!"
"Sure!"
Meanwhile, behind me, I spy an ice cream cart....I look at the selections, thinking I will point out some other fine choices for Blake and the kids...They had a selection of Chocolate covered frozen treats. I saw a Mickey Mouse shaped ice cream bar, a strawberry ice cream bar, a Nestle Crunch bar, and low and behold...a frozen banana! Could it be? An actual piece of fruit? That is what I eat, right? Fruit. I eat lots of fruit. When others are eating churros, I am eating fruit. This was fruit. In fact, it was probably 90% fruit. Maybe even 97% fruit, right? It was brown...a nice, smooth, chocolate brown.
Oh...I could have a frozen banana! Surly, I could! I felt my heart race a little. I felt this dash of hope, glee and ecstasy...I was at Disneyland and magical wonderful things happen there, right? I could have this frozen CHOCOLATE covered banana! I turn to Blake and I say, "I think I could allow myself to have that frozen banana!"
"Oh...you mean that chocolate covered banana?", says Blake.
"Yah...", whispers Julie. Hoping Blake will say the right thing to help me make it all come true and validate my assessment of the situation.
With a shake of his head and a chuckle, Blake says, "I want nothing to do with THAT decision."
Silence.
Tears.
Anger.
Tears.
Big anger.
Confusion.
Crashing spirit.
That was not what I was hoping to hear and I am mad. At first, I thought I was mad at Blake. Afterall, we were at Disneyland, I had been doing so well for weeks and weeks, he could have said, "That sounds like a good compromise." or "Wow, Jules, you have been doing so well, if you think it won't throw you off your momentum, go ahead!"
Honestly, I don't know what I was wanting him to say...It really wasn't his issue. It was mine. A big moment of weakness. A moment of dishonesty with my own soul.
I had to turn away. I had to go off by myself alone and I am ashamed to say, I had to find a spot to cry in Disneyland. I just felt like it was so unfair. People all around me, ths skinny and the fat, were piggin out. "Enjoying" themselves at Disneyland...on vacation...why did I have to eat this #*$&Q?(*^$ apple? Blake came over to me, tried to see what was going on, I told him I just needed some time. He gave it to me, and when I was ready, I slid down the stairs and sat next to him and apologized and told him I was having a "moment" and I was better now.
Geesh! After being on this program for 6 full weeks, you would think I would have gotten over all the "stuff". It takes time, girls. It takes time.
By the way....Part of what helped me get out of the funk and understand that it wasn't Blake I was mad at, was looking at the chunky women passing by (and there were many to see). I kept saying to myself, "You are doing this so you don't end up with a chunky ass all your life. You don't want to waddle your way through the rest of your life! Buck up and stay with it or you will have their ass!"
Well, if you are still with me on this long post, I thank you. I need you guys, big time. It was my bday today and no one made me a cake. I am glad. Don't get me wrong...It is just another sign that I am in a new chapter of my life. I am rewriting the rules on what is normal. Normal for me is now fruit and no cake for my bday. Normal now for me is going to bed each night with no regrets and a pride that no pastry chef can whip up.
'nough said.
Week 2 -Days 1and 2
Thurs 24 points (+4 bank points) 10 glasses of water; 2 fruit; 4 veggies
Fri 24 pts (+5 bank points) 8 glasses of water; 2 fruit;3 veggies
I discovered AppleBees WW menu. Makes it easy for me. My favorite part so far still is never having that overstuffed feeling. Doesn't mean I don't WANT to dig into a giant serving of dessert. Sweets are my weakness!
Here is to changing my life style! One week down, and assuming I live to be 75 or so, only 2,080 weeks to go! HAHA
It IS a journey isn't ladies:)..............................
SueAnne
Day 2
I feel like I'm on a mountain top!
Who'd of thought that I could feel so much better in a short amount of time?
Here's some numbers :
Day 37: 1,306 calories, 9 1/2 glasses of water, workout
Day 38: 1,365 calories, 7 glasses of water, workout
Day 39: 1,424 calories, 7 1/2 glasses of water
Day 40: 1,326 calories, 10 glasses of water, workout
Thursday, February 16, 2006
I weighed myself....
Yesterday:
Breakfast: oatmeal w/ sugar and cinnamon (I realized only a couple of teaspoons of sugar is not that many calories, but it is enough to give that sweeter flavor I really like in oatmeal!)
Snack: cottage cheese and pineapple
Lunch: taco salad, lots of veggies and chili on top
Snack: rice cakes w/ jelly
Dinner: fake "chikn" parmesan w/ asparagus topped with lite laughing cow cheese (this stuff is so yummy and only 1 pt each triangle, spreads and melts wonderfully!)
Snack: 2 corn tortillas w/ pico de gallo
Workout: The Firm body sculpt w/ weights on step bench
Today:
Breakfast: Smoothie
Lunch: 1/2 sandwich made up of avocado, tomato, lettuce and mustard. Carrot sticks on side
Snack: Pria bar (chocolate mint, YUM)
Snack later: 2 tortillas w/ pico de gallo (love this as much as hummus, but it has nearly no calories and no fat!!!)
Dinner: ww pasta w/ sauce
Snack: apple sauce and popcorn, 1 dove dark chocolate
Workout: 1 hour of martial arts - it is STILL kickn' my boo-tay! But I am lovin it! Oh, and I have to be in the belt ceremony doing things all martial artsy in front of PEOPLE! DOH! What did I sign up for? Master Chang told me this today....hmmm, this should be a very humbling moment in my life....
Honesty
Today I am hungry, tired, and grouchy. None of my low/no point foods are satisfying me. Wanting to feed my insatiable hunger for sugar with box of Krispy Kremes and I giant mocha frappe'.
I won't go that far, but my husband is out getting me a mocha. Anyone know how to WW point a 16 oz. peppermint mocha with 2% milk -no whip?
SueAnne
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Week 1 weigh in-Still in my husband's pants
I weighed in for my first week. I was down 2.4 pounds. This is not the typical first week results I was hoping for. But none the less, I feel successful. This week I had two social events (a difficult thing when still trying to master the whole points thing), Valentines Day, and my period (I know, TMI but oh well), and still lost weight. The best part though, really is I never even ONCE fealt like I had overeaten. THAT is a wonderful feeling:)!
So this week, my only social event is the Women's Gathering at church on Friday. The plan-eat before I go and sit far away from the food table:) Plus, the kids and I will be back at the YMCA for homeschool PE which means I can work out on the bicycles there. (The only real work out I can do right now as the broken ankle heals).
So I will hang on to my husbands pants for a while...............
Have a great week!
SueAnne
Today is my third day in a row!
I'm up to 21 pounds exactly this morning! I'm sorry if I'm tempting some of you others that don't want to weigh yet. I'm just so excited. I've not been down to this weight for about three years now. If I can feel this good now, how will it be when I lose another twenty?! I still have A LOT to lose, but I'm already feeling so much better about myself. : )
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
last two days of journal
Yesterday:
Breakfast: cottage cheese and pineapple
Lunch: salad w/ lots of veggies, mandarin oranges and honey mustard dressing and fat free feta, 2 rice cakes w/ sugar free jelly
Snack: a bowl of cereal (correct portion sizes of course)
Dinner: steamed corn tortillas w/ pollo asada YUMMMMMY!, pico de gallo and veggies w/ spanish rice (that i made w/ brown rice and it came out great!)
Snack : Pria bar and grapes
Today:
Breakfast: banana, 2 eggs scrambled w/ pico de gallo on top
Lunch: 2 more of those delicious tacos I made yesterday! (w/ all the veggies and salsa on them)
Snack: cottage cheese and pineapple
Dinner: homemade chili w/ polenta on top
Snack: popcorn w/ parmesan on it and grapes
New program
Just plugging along...
Day 34: 692 calories up until dinner. I went out to Thai food, not sure how many calories I had there. I did eat healthy, but I also did have a small fried spring roll and a small portion of Thai noodles amongst other things. Those two things were no no's for me, but I had them anyways.
I had 10 glasses of water, and a workout.
Day 35: 1,231 calories, 10 glasses of water
Day 36: 1,419 calories, 10 glasses of water, workout
Sorry nothing exciting today. We all have those days, don't we?
Monday, February 13, 2006
Days 2,3,4
So far so good. Paying attention to what I eat has made me aware of how much I eat (or would like to). My WW point goal is 24 points per day.
Friday -social event-Mexican Food. I may have over pointed that meal but I thought it was better to over estimate and be realistic than to under estimate and kid my self. Used up 18 of my "bank points" that day. Saturday, very next morning-Social event-Ladies brunch. Had a wonderful time. My plan was to have a small piece of the egg bake that I knew would be there and point it as an omlet, then just stick with eating fruit. This worked well until she mentioned home made scones.......Had one, it was delicious. By the time I pointed the "omlet", scone, jelly, decidant topping, fruit, creamer in my coffee, O.J. and the fruit, I had spent 23 of my 24 points! Yikes! Discovered the WW no points home made vegetable soup to fill up on. It was quite tasty. Used 4 of my bank points that day. Then, yesterday (family night) I had four points left over at the end of the day and we went out for icecream. Could have stayed at my goal if I had only got one scoop (ate two). Used 5 "bank points" that day.
So here are my stats:
Fri: 24+ points ;10 glasses of water; 1 fruit 4 veggies
Sat: 24+ points; 10 glasses of water; 1 fruit 5 veggies
Sun: 24+ points; 8 glasses of water; 2 fruit 4 veggies
I am so thankful for this system because it works with my brain. I am definately steered toward the healthier food. The thing that has been noticable and wonderful this week is never having that feeling of being overstuffed! I find that if I leave the table in a few minutes I feel really good going about my chores because my body isn't working so hard to digest a truck load of food.
Struggles: Hungry in the afternoons. I don't mind the hunger pains, but I am filling up on veggies in the afternoons and by dinner it is not quite cutting it. I have a head ache by dinner. This may change as my body evens out-after all it is only week 1:)
Have a great day and a wonderful week!!
SueAnne
Sunday, February 12, 2006
Breakfast: banana
Lunch: ww pasta and cantaloupe
Dinner: a Greek feast! I had 1/4 of a pita dipped in tzatziki sauce (low cal, low fat), carrots, greek salad loaded w/ veggies, feta cheese and greek olives I also had a strawberry and grapes, 1/2 a piece of spanikopita and I had 4 pieces of baklava. So, all in all not bad, just not as great as I have been doing. But I am back in the game now.
Snack: popcorn
Ya know, this does not really look as bad as I felt like it was, it seemed so decadant! Well, that is nice to know my view has changed so much! I think I will do my pilates tonight after everyone goes to bed. Thanks for helping me feel accountable. When I wanted piece number 5 of the baklava, all of you popped in my head and I asked myself how I would feel having to write that in here. What a difference a little support can make! THANKS ALL!
Saturday, February 11, 2006
You guys, I've lost my first twenty!!
A possibility with my future?!?!... NAH!
I've been doing well, I've been a workout machine this week. After I go this morning, it will be five times for me. : ) Most of my pants are totally baggy on me, I'm going to need to get some new ones. A couple of them still look pretty good.
Hey, I did get a few peices of clothes at the thrift store the other day. I purposely got a couple of capri pants about two sizes too small to wear this spring. As an incentive. Can you imagine how wonderful it will be for me when I can actually wear them? I'll be a struttin' my stuff about!
Anyhow, here's a few stats for you all:
Day 30: 1,211 calories, 9 glasses of water, workout
Day 31: 1,215 calories, 8 glasses of water, workout
Day 32: 1,280 calories, 9 glasses of water
Day 33: 1,365 calories, 9 glasses of water, workout
Breakfast:
Berry smoothy
Lunch:
whole wheat pasta w/ sauce and a side of applesauce
Snack:
Chocolate mint Pria bar
Dinner:
Oriental chicken salad, dressing on the side
Snack: 2 dove chocolates and a banana
Did my winsor pilates fat burning workout and toning segment after.
Friday, February 10, 2006
Blogger ate my post......
Well, I worked hard on a post, and Blogger ate it. Ate it, moved it and apparently lost it. Imagine that.
Well here are my stats for the past few days:
Day 31: 1064 calories, 7 glasses of water.
Day 32: 1406 calories, 8 glasses of water.
Day 33: 1232 calories, 8 glasses of water.
Day 34: 1406 calories, 8 glasses of water.
Day 35: 1200 calories, 10 glasses of water.
Day 36: 1051 calories, 7 glasses so far, walked very far all day(exercise?)
I am really enjoying this program. It is such a secure feeling knowing the guidelines. It truly empowers me to make the right choices. I feel rewarded each time I follow what I know I need to do. It is so simple and so worth the effort. It just makes sense for me and fits into my life so well. I am excited for the future! Hope you all have a great weekend! Don't fall off the bandwagon!
Day ONE- NEED HELP!
points:24
Water: 11 glasses
Fruit:1
Veggies:4
I feel successful for the first day. But I have come to the point in my life where I finally realized this will be a lifetime thing. Finally realized I just don't have the genetic make up of my skinny friends:) and it will be a day to day journey. This is who I am. Boy I spent so long trying to be someone else!
NEED HELP! I am still new to the point system. Once a month, our church homegroup has a "date night" where one family provides childcare and everyone else goes out on a date. Well that is tonight. We will be eating at Peurto Villarta (mexican). Don't know how to point this meal. I would like to have a planned menu choice. Cheesy, cheesy stuff-real weakness for me. Any suggestions?????
SueAnne
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Tina's journal
Lunch: terriyaki chicken and salad YUM!
Snack: a piece of meatloaf (also YUM!) & grapes
Dinner: burritos w/ lots of veggies
Snack: grapes
Check me out, no hummus this week! Ha! I knew I could beat that nasty old hummus addiction! Now what am I supposed to dip my veggies in? Ranch? Ewww.
Oh, did martial arts today, I am now feeling like a little old lady as it is a little hard to stand upright tonight, my thighs and buttocks hurts...it's a good hurt right? That guy just loves to watch us do lunges....dangit. And I did do 20 girly pushups too. Night all.
Mindless Eating
Have you heard the term "mindless eating"? Well my mind was definitely uninvolved with what my hands and mouth were doing. Anyway, on with the weekend. You would think that with all the guilt I felt over the popcorn I would get back on track Sunday. Sunday was the Superbowl!That's sort of like Christmas - right? Lots of food, drink and friends. Well, 3 Lemon Drops( who's counting) and an abundance of yummy snacks later I'm back in the "mindless eating" AGAIN!
First Goal : Get out of my husband's pants
I went to my first WW meeting last night. It filled me full of hope that I can make a difference. Nice to have a PLAN (other than just getting out of bed each day and thinking I will eat better today:)
My first goal is to get back to a size 14 so I can wear the clothes in my closet and give my husband his pants back! This will probably take about 10 pounds. I don't have to breathe if I get my pants on right?
So today is day one for me. 24 points per day and lots of water.
Hardest thing for me to give up: Mocha Frappe's and seconds on pizza!
Have a great day!
SueAnne
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
2/8/06
Breakfast:
English muffin w/ fried egg & applesauce (on the side)
Lunch: 2 rice cakes w/ cream cheese and grapes
Dinner: meatloaf, couscous and asparagus
Snack: popcorn, grapes and oj
I also did 45 minutes of martial arts and 10 minutes of pilates today. Oh, I learned something pretty cool too. I found out that if I am starving, I do not need to make a meal larger than normal because I have skipped a meal or not had anything soon enough. Instead I have learned that I can make a normal size meal, eat it and to my surprise I am satisfied! I am very happy about this...it is a big change for me.
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Good news to share!
OK, can you tell I had my mammogram today by my little cartoon there? Well, I did! And it went great! They took 7 pictures...then called me in to do an ultrasound. They kept asking me to point to the area where my Dr. said I had a cyst...they could not find ANYTHING! Then they called the Dr. in to do the ultrasound and so of course I asked her about the mammogram and she said, "Oh, I just have to tell you, you have perfect breasts" (ok there is more to that story, I just like to stop there and decided I am going to go with what she said, that I have perfect breasts, tell your friends, post it on the web whatever, I have never had strangers tell me that before) ok, here is the rest of her comment: " perfect breasts for reading mammograms, can see through them perfectly on the film and see everything in there and they could see NOTHING!!!!!! So, looks great...still waiting for my blood test information, but that is the least of my worries compared to today, this was tough and scary, but Hallelu YAH I am fine!! Thanks all for listening and remember...I have perfect breasts.
I'm loving myself enough to eat RIGHT!
But you know, food was such a crutch for me. And food has always been there... when I'm angry, or when I'm depressed. When I'm tired, or when I'm excited and celebrating. Food has always been there. And I have abused food, and it at times has been my worst enemy. This last month since I've changed my habits, I have come across a new found determination, and grace. I've found that I don't have to be a slave to anything... and I've found that if I truly do love myself, that I will take care of my body, by eating right and excercising. It is truly a great feeling to have taken the control back in regards to my health, and my old ugly habits.
Here's some numbers for those of you who are number watchers:
Day 27: 1,370 calories, 10 glasses of water
Day 28: 1,349 calories, 8 glasses of water
Day 29: 1,274 calories, 12 glasses of water, workout
SueAnne's First Blog post EVER
Hello ladies!
Thank you for the welcome. This is my first experience with blogging EVER. I am enjoying reading your encouraging entries. I am not losing anything at this time. I am just trying not to put anymore on! I am hobbling around on a broken ankle and carrying around my "holiday extra weight" plus! (I broke the ankle two days before Christmas). This is a picture of me (left) with my aunt and my oldest daughter at Christmas. I have about 40-50 pounds to lose (more if you go by a calculated "ideal" weight) and am thinking about joining weight watchers. Does anyone have any experience good or bad with that? Have a great day!
God Bless,
SueAnne